or the blessed lack there of. I've battled it for years now, to the edge of suicide more than once and back. I never want to hear anyone say "oh you can just snap out of it". No, you can't trust me I tried my very best to snap out of it. With the help of a wonderful therapist and drugs depression is at bay. I won't say it's behind me because I don't think that's true. But it doesn't control my life like it has in the past. It's nice to see color again, worry about my garden again, want to participate in life again.
Bless you Dr. Sanity and Abilify without the 2 of you I wouldn't be here.